Because sometimes, when I wake up in the middle of the night, I turn my computer back on, sign back in to ym and buzz her because there’s a slight chance that she might still be awake and there’s a slight chance that I might only be dreaming and there’s the slightest chance that, in my dream, she might buzz back. She might want to talk.

But then I realize I’m not dreaming, I really am awake. She’s asleep. Or maybe she’s not. There’s the slightest chance that she’s talking to someone else. And no, she won’t buzz back. And so I type a message, ‘cause there’s the slightest chance that she might want to talk after she receives it. Then I hit the backspace button, ‘cause I know I’m not dreaming. I really am awake.

So I go back to sleep, and hope that I remember my dream when I wake up. Because there’s a chance that it will be about her. Not slight, shall I say.