I don’t know, this is how it should be, I guess? I mean what the heck am i suppose to do, everything seems so hard right now and nothing’s making sense. I promised something to her but I don’t think I’ll be able to fulfill that. I’m trying my best though.

Actually I’ll complain because that’s the least dificult thing to do at the moment,  Everything’s so difficult, I can’t even finish that damn math report. You know what? On second thought I won’t complain. I’ll complain when I start making sense.

Well, I don’t know. God knows how much I want to give support but how? I can’t even force a smile everytime I see her. I can’t even look when they’re together. I can’t even think right (hence this post). How the heck am I gonna give support?

It would also be great if someone can rid me of this grief. I mean even just a little bit. I don’t want my sister hearing me whispering this girl’s name when I’m asleep anymore. Just rid me some of this soreness.

uhmmm..well what else?? I didn’t knew it was gonna be this hard. I knew it was coming and I was expecting it. Well actually I wasn’t. I was planning to do something about it. I was this close. I didn’t knew she was planning to end it. I didn’t even had the chance. Well I did have all the chance. I don’t know.

The only thing I can do now is find ways on how to make it through each day. And hopefully find some meaning along the way. And maybe another few minutes of her time. It just happened way too fast, I didn’t manage to keep up with the pace. I was about a couple hours off. A couple hours!!

Oh man, this is starting to feel like I’m on my selfish mode again. I’ll just end this here. And yeah I know, those weren’t hours. They’re more like weeks.

I need a moment to fall out of love with you….

Actually I might need a millennium..