I’m a drink away from losing my sobriety, fortunately my grip is strong enough to hold it ‘cause I know that I need every bit of it to restrain myself from being verbally displeasing. On the way home i received a threatening message which is sad because it came from people who I know very well, from the people who I thought knew me. Headache and all, tired and sleepy, I somehow managed to contain myself from vocally combating these people. Instead of sending out rage, I found myself apologizing and explaining myself to them. Must be the alcohol. I do admit, part of it was my fault but sending that kind of threat wasn’t necessary at all. Dividing myself is an impossibility and if it were possible, I’d do it in a heartbeat just to satisfy them. They know I badly want to be with them as well. None offense taken though. I have my sobriety with me.